Meaning of Life: Macy Hittmeier


Photo by Abril Salinas

Q: How are you?

A: I’m good!

Q: Name?

A: Macy Hittmeier

Q: Age?


Q: Grade?

A: Junior

Q: What is the first thing you thought about this morning?
A: That it’s Halloween
Q: If you knew you were going to die on year from today, what would you do?

A: I’d probably just accept it. I don’t think I would change like drastically. Maybe I wouldn’t take so long to solve certain problems and stuff like that. Like I would have my knee surgery to make my knee better.
Q: How would you want to be remembered?

A: As someone who helped people at some point. Not just as “Oh ya, Macy, she was okay.”

Q: What’s your life’s philosophy?

A: To help people and be nice.

Q: Do you consider yourself an introvert or extrovert?

A: Both, because over my life from middle school to now I would like cry if someone said hi to me in the hallway. Now i’m incredibly social and loud and annoying, so both.

Q: What was the best “phase” in your life

A: Either when I was super young, like elementary school or preschool because I had no worries. I would also say now because it like past the early highschool phase.

Q: What makes you feel accomplished

A:I mean i’ve gotten past a lot of awkward years like middles school and that. I have a really solid group of friends and I think that’s something i’m pretty proud of.

Q: What’s your favorite book/movie?

A: My favorite book is called “We were Lieres.”

Q: Why did it speak to you so much?

A: It’s the like the first book i’ve ever really read like without a school requirement and actually finished willingly. It was really good and I recommend it which says a lot because I usually don’t recommend books.

Q: What’s an ideal weekend for you?

A: Probably just hanging out with friends, seeing my boyfriend Andrew. I go to work which is fun because I like work. I get to see my dad, Rob.

Q: Are you confrontational?

A: Yes actually. I used to not be but because of past experiences where I didn’t necessarily stand up for myself. I think now when someone says something it’s faster and easier to get the problem out of the way.

Q: What are you most thankful for?

A: It sounds cheesy and basic but friends and family. A Lot of people don’t have a really supportive friend or family group but i have extremely amazing one with awesome views who are extremely supportive.

Q: What’s the one thing most people misunderstand about you?

A: They think i’m extremely shy and don’t want to talk to anyone. I used to be like the but i’m so much better not and honestly anyone could come up to me and start talking to me and I would be like “Yeah let’s be friends,” and I know a lot of people say that but I actually literally mean that. I just honestly talk to anyone.

Q: What’s your idea of a perfect vacation?

A: Probably going somewhere that’s like a historical cultural place instead of a beach and stuff like that. A place like Rome I think would be cool.

Q: When have you felt your biggest adrenaline rush?

A: Probably when I saw Panic!At The Disco for the first time.

Q: Would you do it again?

A:  Yes, and I have. I’ve done it twice.

Q: If a you had 3 wishes what would you wish for?

A: To meet Brendon Urie, right away, right now. I don’t know, I don’t like to mess with fate though so I’m overthinking this. I think wishing my friends and family and me could all be happy. Nothing drastic like changing or happening because I don’t like to mess with future things but like if something were meant to happen then it will happen. But I would definitely meet Brendon Urie.

Q: What’s your biggest regret in life?

A: If i’m actually being honest, I don’t have any regrets because even the worst situations that I can think of kind of helped me become better at things now and helped with who I am today. I don’t really regret anything. Even if I hated something in the moment and it was awful, but it helped in the long run.

Q: What do you think about when by yourself?

A: A lot of things probably, I have a lot of thoughts going through my head all the time. It really depends, like in the morning when i’m getting ready i’m really tired so I have a lot of random thoughts going through my head and they make no sense. Sometimes I wake up thinking about weird things, sometimes I think about stuff like how many days until Halloween or what do I have to do next. I think that’s what I would say, stressing about what I have to do next.

Q: What does happiness mean to you?

A: I think it’s important, to have it and to spread it because if you’re not happy then everything is sad and that’s not good. I mean you’re not going to be happy all the time obviously.

Q: What are some things that give you peace of mind?

A: First of all music, my dog Cocoa,friends and family. Gymnastics used to but now it stresses me out.

Q: What makes it so hard for us to break away from things/people we care about?

A: Probably because we’re used to them being around. If it’s like moving and they’re still living I think it’s about getting over the fact that they’re not there, because a lot of people ignore that you can still be connected over the phone and stuff like that. So I think just being used to them being there.

Q: What are some things you are scared of losing?

A: My dog, my friend group when I go to college, Andrew when he goes to college next year. Basically people who are important to me, losing them them when different parts of my life come up.

Q: Where do you think you will be 10 years from now?

A: Hopefully having a job and being successful, all that happy stuff.

Q: Do you think you need to be able to see in order to create art?

A: Nope, because art isn’t just drawing. Music can be art and honestly anything can be art. Anything you’re passionate about I think can be art, like sports can be art dance can be art.

Q: Why did people start believing in God, and whose God should we believe in?

A: To have something to live for in a way. If you don’t really believe in something then you kind of get the mindset of “What’s the point of doing this if nothing comes after it?’’ Now I think people should be able to believe in whatever the want to, even if you don’t believe anything stall.

Q: Do you think the human race is always getting smarter?

A: There are definitely parts of us that are but I think there’s also parts of us that aren’t over time. I think with things like technology people are just relying on it to much. There are people who invent the stuff and I think they are smart but then there are people who rely on it to much and I don’t think they are that smart, and they are relying on other people and things instead of their own heads.

Q: Why don’t we have a global language?

A: Probably because of how it all started in the beginning. It was a lot more separated, different countries starting in different areas and no one’s going to change it now.

Q: Can you have religious faith without believing in God?

A: Yeah, I think so, like kind of thinking there could be life after death but not believing a god or the Christian God. Me personally, I have had point where I have had faith in things and other times not so much. Like faith in something, that doesn’t necessarily mean a god, just something.

Q: Do we have souls?

A: I think people have personalities, they’re not just a body with bones and organs and stuff like that. People are people and there is more to us than just that. I’m obviously not completely sure what I believe in in terms of God and stuff like that.

Q: What happens when we die?

A: I think there are some point where I think it could be no feeling, just like when you were born and you feel nothing, remember nothing. There are also other point where I think maybe not.

Q: Is there an afterlife?

A: I don’t know I think there could be as much as there couldn’t be. I mean who am I to say, i’m just a 16 year old.

Q: What is insanity?

A: I don’t think people with mental illness should be defined as insane. I think that’s the wrong way to put it. I think people have had past experiences that lead them to do stuff but to label them as insane just isn’t okay.

Q: What is reality?

A: Being straight up in a way like when I say “in reality” it’s not being like it could be this or this. It’s being real.

Q: As a child/ back in your younger days, what experiences were the most memorable?

A: Times with family and things like that. Anything that’s related to things that are still important to me like family, that’s still important to me so I remember a lot about that. Gymnastics too, I remember a lot about gymnastics.

Q: Who is your idol, why do you admire that person?

A: If I were to be joking Brendon Urie but if I were to be super serious, probably my brother Chase or my dad. Chase is transgender, he went through a lot during high school and I admire every single way that he has gotten through that. Hes gone through a lot of mental issues and physical issues and people not accepting him for who he is. I mean I struggle enough not going through transition so I admire the way he goes through that and he still goes through that. He still manages to be a brave and seeming happy person, even though he might not always be he always makes sure I am. Then with my dad he had a lot going on when he grew up. He moved 23 times all the way up into high school. There was this one point where he was literally living in a broken down trailer with his five siblings and they had to shower at the school in the morning and things like that. He’s dedicated his whole life to helping people he works as a mental health administrator, I think that’s cool that he can go through all that and then dedicate his time to helping people who have gone through things similar to him.

Q: What are your core values and beliefs?

A:Being a nice person because as often and comment as you hear it, if you are nice to people that help improve someone’s entire day. They could be having the worst day and saying one thing to them, even if you don’t know them, that could help a lot for them. I think the idea of helping and accepting would be the most important things for me because people just want to be who they are. Whether they are LGBT or not whether it’s “I want to cut my hair really short” or not, the big things and the small things, I think you should be able to accept people for who they are because at the end of the day it doesn’t matter it’s just their happiness on the line.

Q: What causes are near and dear to your heart? Why?

A:Honestly I think anything that’s out to help people is important to me. Things that help people who are generally less fortunate whether it’s them being discriminated upon or them being less wealthy. If you’re generally more of a minority I think that it’s important to help people.

Q: What does a legacy mean to you?

A:To leave an effect. I think you can have a bad legacy. People can remember someone for a really bad reason like Hitler, or you could remember someone for really good reasons. It doesn’t mean you have to be famous all over the world to leave a legacy, you could just be someone living and be remembered because your a good person and helped a lot of people.

Q: What is true about yourself today that would make your eight year old self cry of happiness?

A: Probably that i’m a social person now. That i’m a lot more comfortable with who I am and like I said before someone would talk to me and I would want to break down crying because I was so socially anxious. I still deal with that but not nearly to the same existent. I go out of my way to talk to people.

Q: What is true about yourself today that would make your eight year old self happy?

A:Maybe that i’m a gymnastics coach. My 8 year old self was a gymnast and obsessed with gymnastics and now I’m a coach so that’s fun.

Q:  If you had a chance to save the world how would you save it?

A:Well I could go physically with climate change and things like that or personally kind of thing. I’ve said this multiple times now, but I think just being kind can do a huge fricking difference. Also taking care of the earth, like recycle or something.

Q: What is one thing you want to do before you die?

A:I want to go to another country for sure. I want to travel but I’m already going to Portugal with choir so I quest that’s already happening. But you know what it doesn’t even have to be something extravagant for me it could be having good people around me at the end of it.

Q: Why do you think we are so focused on finding the meaning of life?

A:To find something to live for. Everyone wants a bigger purpose than just going to school or work. If you don’t  find a purpose to do all those things at the end of it can be like “Well what’s the point of doing this if there is so meaning to it?”

Q: What is your meaning of life?

A:To be happy and help other people be happy. I go to school and stuff so I can go to a college that makes me happy. But that’s not the only thing that makes me happy, the people I surround myself with make me happy so I do things to help others be happy too.